Monday, September 13, 2010

My Name Is*

ex. x. equis. a kiss, and we vanished. it's weird hearing it from you even though i spit it like it was nothing before. take the picture down, tuck it away in your drawer- i know it's still in our hearts. maybe only for now..and it's ok. a lot of things that we've both done have been completely unfair. but for the first time i really see that i've done worse damage. i wanted this portion of my life to be my selfish years. somehow i think us growing separately will only teach me how to be selfless and mature.

everything happens for a reason.
everything is a lesson.
never make anyone your everything because once they're gone you have nothing.
mind is everything.
everything that can be counted does not necessarily count; everything that counts cannot necessarily be counted

a glimpse into my jumbled brain. a bunch of proverbs, maxims, and aphorisms that i've picked up but haven't learned to use correctly. then i wonder why i even thought that it was necessary to correlate every single experience i have with a dumb saying in the first place. at least a saying that i didn't come up with. this is my life. how f*cking scary.

which means i have to change my ultimate goal: the ability to make oneself happy without relying on outside influences

the chain- ingrid michaelson