the priest said "we must be single minded". i could only understand that as being close minded. no? ugh..*

hjl,tihymmf*

cool

i prefer sausage to taco*

Tonight*

went back to your place. no one was home. talked to enzo through the window. 88.7, windows down, drove home. pack up, move on, peace out.

okay*

today someone asked me if i was really okay.

i'd say so. what does my face say?
"i forgot to use my el pollo loco coupon that expires today"

g.s.d.*

i havent seen our drafts to each other in a long time. woooowwwww, we made it through some crazy sh*t. haha imy

baila baila*

in deep end dance. white hawk wants to fly so this phoenix will too :) mariah carey is preachin it right now with always be my baby. nothings changed inside. im not sayin we'll return to this nest but you get the picture..

My Name Is*

ex. x. equis. a kiss, and we vanished. it's weird hearing it from you even though i spit it like it was nothing before. take the picture down, tuck it away in your drawer- i know it's still in our hearts. maybe only for now..and it's ok. a lot of things that we've both done have been completely unfair. but for the first time i really see that i've done worse damage. i wanted this portion of my life to be my selfish years. somehow i think us growing separately will only teach me how to be selfless and mature.

everything happens for a reason.
everything is a lesson.
never make anyone your everything because once they're gone you have nothing.
mind is everything.
everything that can be counted does not necessarily count; everything that counts cannot necessarily be counted

a glimpse into my jumbled brain. a bunch of proverbs, maxims, and aphorisms that i've picked up but haven't learned to use correctly. then i wonder why i even thought that it was necessary to correlate every single experience i have with a dumb saying in the first place. at least a saying that i didn't come up with. this is my life. how f*cking scary.

which means i have to change my ultimate goal: the ability to make oneself happy without relying on outside influences

the chain- ingrid michaelson

Ho Boi*

i really miss that ocean breeze car freshener. even how hot and sticky my skin would get despite the shade from a tree. the furry seats. thumpthump. thumpthump. breathe, girl..

How are you?*

"i doubt that you'll ever come back around
gettin so used to silence its becoming loud"
-SK

anh les miserable*

i just want to sleep and sleep and sleep. but im going to start working on my list of things to work on

ms*

i trust in the purity and the strength of it all- even in the ridiculous notion that it was somehow reincarnated from another time. then why do i feel like i got left behind.. i'm so whack. so so whack. to be frank...i dont know how to be frank anymore. i just hope i can be as dgaf as you are.

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if there was a girl who could make me more lesbian than i already am, it'd be kelly rosenthal.

Bbm Gb Db Ab*

im racing the earth. what i hear no one else has to know

panhda express*

my green knitting needles looked like bamboo. and yes, knitting is once again a favorite past time activity of mine!