NDE

"In Raymond Moody's research, he discovered that at the point of physical death the individuals find themselves floating above their physical body immersed in feelings of total peace and the absence of fear. The newly deceased person finds that they can hear the thoughts of those present and discover that they can also move through walls and solid matter with great ease.

In about 40% of cases a tunnel may appear towards which they are drawn. They find themselves quickly moving through this tunnel often accompanied by a humming sensation.

As they move through this tunnel the individual notices that a light is getting closer to them and soon they find themselves arriving into this brilliant light.

At this point many people report meeting with deceased friends and relatives. Occasionally people see cities of light that are more beautiful than anything we can imagine in physical reality.

During this experience the individual discovers that they can communicate with others telepathically that results in immediate understanding.

Most people then meet a radiant being. Some believe this radiant being is God while others say he was Jesus, Buddha, Mohammed, Krishna etc. It seems that each person translates this being according to their own religious beliefs. Whoever this being actually is, he is full of love and understanding. Usually at this point the being tells the individual that they must return to physical life. However, before the person returns they are shown a review of their physical lifetime.

This life review starts at the person's birth and continues through their lifetime to the point at which they died. This panoramic life review does not occur in time, as we know it. People have described it as everything happening at the same time, but also occurring chronologically from the time of birth through childhood, adolescence and adult years right up to the point of their death. In this review the person find themselves reliving all that they have done during their life. The individual not only sees every action that they have made in life but they also see and feel the effects of their actions upon the lives of others.

In virtually every case the individual believes that they are actually judging themselves and what they have done during life. They feel great sadness during the parts of the review where their actions have hurt other people, but they also feel great joy for the actions that have made others happiness.

Once the life review is complete, the being of light tells the person that they must now return to physical life as they still have things to achieve before they can return to this wondrous place. Most people say that at this point they feel great reluctance to return as it will mean having to leave this rapturous and wonderful state of being."

Whether or not it is indicative of what the afterlife is like, I don't know. I mean there is the "transcendental temptation hankering after the world beyond". But it brings comfort nonetheless.

"The test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas in mind at the same time and still retain the ability to function."
-F.S. Fitzgerald

Stage 4

Cycling between anger, sorrow, restraint, hope, disillusionment, faith, numbness, peace, hysteria. The Chinese were right to make 4 the unlucky number.

Strength

I wish I could turn things upside down so that it didn't have to be this way. "God has a plan for everyone." But I refuse to believe that yours only has 6-10 months left. This is when I want to stop believing in Wikipedia.

Night is the morning's Canvas
Larceny - legacy -
Death, but our rapt attention
To Immortality.

Am I living it right?

Cause I wonder sometimes about the outcome of a still verdictless life. Since I was in elementary school there has always been this notion in the back of my mind telling me that I'd always be that one chick everyone said was "most likely to (fill in blank with something amazing)", and end up jobless, alone with a mangy cat, and spiritually lifeless. Does anybody sell some sort of injection where my body will create massive transmissions of some sort of hormone that gives humans their so-called "soul"?